Recently i've been having weird dreams...it feels very disturbing. In some dreams, I was running away from terrible things that wanted to kill me. In others, I saw sumone and wanted to see who was it, but that person just walked away. (I don't even know whether that person is a girl or guy! I suppose it's a guy though.) I just had a nightmare last night. It was the same one that I dreamt of last time. Some kind of zombies tried to kill me and stuff, but I managed to escape in the end. There was also "THE FISHES". They tried to lure me and kill me too, but I was smart to not fall for their trick again.

What are these "FISHES" u might say..Let me explain. They are a bunch of big dead fish. ( yes, very dead. ) How they lure me? Well..they can make a person hallucinate that he or she is seeing a group of mermaids playing in the water. Then, the "mermaids" (which is "THE FISHES") would ask that person to join them. Then they'll turn back into dead evil big fishes when the time is right, and KILL that person. God bless them. >.< (to be at peace and stop haunting us.)

Well....today I almost cried at school. I didn't know why. There was this feeling inside of me and it was intense. My whole heart felt as if it was freezing up. (literally) It's no joke. Maybe some person would be reading this now and laughing, but it's not funny. I felt lonely and lost. It was as if I've lost everything. I became so sensitive to my surroundings and got terrified at even small little things. Plus, my chairman had to sit beside me cuz he wanted to play wif the boys behind. That seriously frightened me a lot, but I didn't say anything. At times though, I noticed a boy looking at me worriedly. He didn't show it obviously, but I think he was worried for me. After all, he WAS a friend of mine. (or so I thought. I dun know about how he ranks me though.) When I went to the toilet, (to wash my face cuz I just woke up) he made an excuse that he wanted to go to the boys toilet. Call me sensitive and ignorant, but I at that point really thought that he wanted to check if I was crying. Perhaps I was just being silly, but that's a point of him I really like. (i'm just his friend. dun get no ideas. >.>") He's not a bad person, though his behaviour gives the impression. He was the only guy in class who said happy birthday to me. In fact, I was surprised he actually remembered it. He's too sweet, seriously. (plus he plays basketball =D)

At this point you would probably think i'm lovestruck. Or infactuated. But no. I probably only admire him a lot as a friend. That's all. Also, I have my reasons. Firstly, he's shorter than me. (well nevermind! he'll grow! for sure one.) Secondly, my best friend is still "in love" with him. (they were once together.) Third, it's impossible for anybody to like me nowadays. (at least..I think so.) Probably everyone views me as a "ah lian" (damn u jun wei >< hurt my feelings leh) or "heck-care-you-go-and-die attitude person"or "damn cold and cool to even approach".

Why...why me?! I didn't do anything wrong... T-T oh wellz...

Recently i've developed an interest for comics. I read more and more and more.

OMG. LOOK AT THE TIME. I gotta go do my project >< otherwise there'll be no time! Ciao ppl~