Sry ppl! I realised that I have not been blogging....sry to those who were bored by the sudden change of events! Also, chapter 5 ish up~! YAY! and it introduced Kail's fiancee, Yuka, who waited for him 1000 years! Aww...isn't that sweet? Yuka is sometimes evil and sometimes sweet, but her sister isn't! Kaihi, if I wrote it correctly, would be a lean mean killing machine, and in addition, she's partially insane! ><
Well....today at school, I almost cried. Stupid teacher...tried to force me to be the management head. Argh...i'm soooooo weak! Then my friend spoke up for me...she was soooo brave... Thx god she was there...then the teacher changed his mind and made someone else be the head...
Oh...and i've been thinking...about the people who i've once crushed on...and I confused myself in the end. >< I mean...what I felt for them is most probably admiration or just a sense of liking. But nothing serious really...If you ask me why, I would say..."Because of their aura." Seriously, all the people i liked had this weird aura that draws me to them. I don't know who is the original one...(who is probably the person I realli realli liked.)
Then it occurred to me.
What is love and what is admiration? What is infactuation? Do i....realli like these people? or just a feeling of admiration towards them? I used to be an ugly duckling, so not many people liked me(as in boy-girl thingy). Then I rebonded my hair and it was much better. But still....I felt really greatful. I know..I was aware...that some boys liked me. ><><
Oh...and it's almost time...to go back for Chinese New Year.... I feel a little shy. After all...most of my classmates have not been in touch with me for quite some time. They've all been realli successful...and I feel I'm not. So I stand out like a black sheep. (Baaa~) Haha....
Who ish...linpei_reloaded? It's an irritating question. Cuz I suspect it's Daniel John Tan. If so, he's been realli weird. Raffles must have changed him. Scary...
Omg...it's late.....I better go...my brother wan use the com...sianz...>< see ya...
P.S: READ MY STORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDDDD
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Start of school
That's really it. My school is terrible. Will be terrible. And ALWAYS is terrible. So ppl....DUN BE FOOLED. My school is a nicely wrapped hell. On the outside, it looks nice and okay and happy and dandy. But on the inside, you feel like dying. Which makes me surprised that no students suffer from depression yet. Initially, I wanted to be the first one, but I decided against it. This school isn't WORTH me going suicidal for it.
Okay....start of school. Yesterday was totally terrible, crappy, end-of-the-world-temporally. My chinese teacher still okay...but my two english teachers suxed. And I mean...realli suxed. One kept giving us the "bu shuang" face and kept glaring at us for no reason. (yes...we didn't even make noise!) the other one was firm...and she tried to be funny when she is not funny at all. Usually ppl would say..."LOSER!" and I finally understand why. Anyways...My form teacher AND co- form teachers are my art teachers from last year. I have always detested them and always will.
Well.....on and on and on..
Then when I got home yesterday, I was trying to study, finish my piano, do my homework, deal with wei hang over the smallest of stupid quarrels(he would rather die than to give in to me. Oh..and did I mention he NEVER treated me as a sister? Good grief. And he loves to cry to get what he wants. It's really sad.) and.....getting all stressed out. I cried and cried and cried non-stop. No wonder I wished for world destruction. Then...a friend told me lots of stuff...and tried to make me feel better. I was so grateful. I was really at my lowest end that time and everything seemed to be crumbling into pieces.
Today was much better. Our maths teacher is quite funny...but his jokes were very cold. My friend kept laughing though. Dunno why.... Oh...and Miss Lim, the angel, decended from heaven to keep my soul intact. Her subject is the only thing keeping me alive now. She will never know how much it means to me
Okay...can't write much...cuz I wan go play my games....dun have much time to play. Maybe i'll write more next time.
