Ah...I guess I have no inspiration for a song now.
There was nothing left of you. Everything was a lie.
You played with us and then you stepped onto us.
You treated us like dirt and moved on.
Guess what? They might be hurting, but I'm done with you.
I'm sick of your crap. I'm sick of your lousy pretense.
You have been a liar from the start.
They might cry for you when you die. But believe me...
I won't cry.
I don't need you.
You're better off dead.
I have my friends...I have people who truly care for me.
You? You're nothing.
You're just left with a crappy part of what you called 'life'.
One day you'll hurt yourself as much as you hurt others.
And that would be the day we laugh at you. For you had betrayed us.
You ran away.
I'm over all this friendship crap.
You pretend to care but really, we're simply substitutes for some other person you 'cared' for.
She might be hurting, but I'm not.
I'm ready to point out all the crap you've been throwing at us.
You're pathetic.
I hate you. I just don't say it out loud.
I don't even know why I respected your stupid decisions till now.
Just die...
And take your crap along with you.
Cuz we don't need you.
We never did.
And never will.
I...don't know what in the world I was typing. O.O I simply typed and typed till my anger went away. Just ignore this post LOL. It might not be directed at anybody in particular.
Aha. It had been so long since I blogged. I'm just doing it now cuz I'm pretty much bored.
Been thinking lots of about Neji and Hinata. Are they meant to be together...? And would Sasuke die in the end? Most likely not, but there's still a quiet fear in my heart...
Many ppl are still surprised at my short hair.
Yay~ Tomorrow there's a concert and I'm going with Ning. It's so fun fun fun. I'm so excited. I hope that it would blow me away LOL. It's been long since I went out with her.
My dreams are getting even weirder recently. I feel like I'm turning into some kind of sicko.
However, because of that weird dream I had yesterday, I finally came up with a beautiful love story plot.
Maybe this time I'll make it...
Okay. Confession time. I HAVE been thinking about my classmates at school. Like...maybe I was missing them cuz of the long break. I returned to being who I am and even more.
I wonder if they'll accept me.
So many dreams...so many times...I've seen so much.
For example, that 'Wind' guy...well, those last few words he said actually got me all sobby. Like...he really liked her.
Secondly was some eurasian looking guy. No...not those big big sized and mature looking ones. More of...the cute and boyish kind that makes girls go all 'oooooh!' Maybe i've been watching too much Titanic. (ahahahahaha.) He had those kind of golden-brown hair and blue eyes. (yup. typical 'cute-guy' type.) In the dream, he protected me from some weird guy that was chasing me. I think he was some kind of...sadistical 'chain-ppl-to-walls' kind of guy. I freaked out and half-fainted onto the platform. (yes...I know that was a stupid move to do.) Then the eurasian guy came over and somehow created some mist-like stuff and i appeared to be invisible to everybody except him. Water control? I think too much fantasy stuff for me. Thing is, I didn't even get to ask for his name.
*Slams head onto the keyboard*
I have weird dreams. I kinda enjoy them though. I seem to meet all different kinds of ppl where ever I go.
The latest one was about...some prince capturing a girl and stuff liddat. It's a bit...too much for me to say out. So i'll most probably write a fic about that.
So much nonsense here. Argh.
I wanna start on my story...but I didn't bring my thumbdrive! Great. That was the smartest thing I have ever done.
Another habit I have lately is to threaten ppl with an army of squirrels whenever they call me 'mad' or 'insane'. I mean...it IS a lot of fun to do so. We all need to lighten up some time or another.
I'll go, "YOU called me INSANE!!!!" A little insanity injected here...and there...
Then I'll continue, "I shall set my army of squirrels on you! Bwahahahaha! GO MY MINIONS! GO!"
I think I'll freak out my classmates. I wonder if they're reading this now...x.x
Oh yea. The best part is when I thought of a counter for my 'squirrel' move. Apparently, my army of squirrels are actually very subceptible to bribes. So one could just give them nuts and they'll betray me.
Quite smart critters, aren't they?
Omg. I have to stop myself. I'm opening up insane mode once more. NUUUUUU!
I. Have. To. Write. Now!
Oh yea. Here's a couple of songs I thought that you guys should try out.
1. 'Frozen' by Madonna
2. 'So Far Away' by Staind
They rock! (and pebble as well.)
Here's the lyrics:
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Song: So Far Away
Artist: Staind
This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping
(chorus)
Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today
These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping
(chorus)
I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
(chorus)
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Song: Frozen
Artist: Madonna
You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
You're so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken
When your heart's not open
[Chorus:]
Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key
Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken
Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
[Chorus:]
Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key
You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
[Chorus:]
Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key
If I could melt your heart...
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Cool songs huh? I loved them. It's touching.
I'll be posting my own song lyrics onto the next post! So check it out!
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Back home at last
Yay. I'm back.
I don't know how many people would be happy about that...but yea. I'm back. AHAHAHA.
That means...we get to hear more insane stuff coming from me.
Anyways....been in australia....where i was having weird dreams.
For example, there was this one dream where I dreamt of this guy called "wind" or sumthing. In the dream, I only called him by his chinese (nick)name which was "feng". The special thing is....this guy was not an anime character or what. He was kinda....3D. That's freaky. O.O
One of the things I remember most about him was his eyes. Cuz there was a point where he was walking beside me and i was kinda scared of him. (ahaha.) So i kept glancing apprehensively at him. Sometimes I would catch his side profile...but others I would accidentally meet his eyes. The dream didn't last long...but he felt like a guardian to me. Somehow, there was a sense of security when he simply walked beside of me.
Or maybe that wasn't me? Cuz even though I looked at him through that girl's eyes, she didn't look like me. I noticed that when she looked into a pond. She was wearing a white gown(very summoner-like) and she had long slightly light brown hair. (mostly black colour) She was really pretty...Her personality was also wonderful. The very embodiment of perfection.
I can't remember much. But the ending of the dream was somehow easier to remember.
The girl was sitting by the ruins of a city and looking into the water at her reflection. A sound was heard behind her and "wind" appeared. I think he said something about "thank god I've found you." Then he walked slowly towards her as she stared at him from the place where she was sitting. (which was of a higher ground) Then she jumped off...right into his arms. And said his name. Cuz I was looking through her eyes at the scene...so I felt the warm feeling from the hug. O.O Somehow i was glad that he found her.
Maybe i've been reading too much of books.
The strange thing about my dreams...are that I always seem to know those people in the dream but not in real life.
So i'll wake up wondering....who are they?
Anyways...i also dreamt of a couple of people whom i know in real life as well....such as schoolmates. Not gonna tell you who LOL.
Another extremely wonderful dream was when I dreamt of Sasuke. (and got to speak with him!) YAY! He was a nice person...but kinda passive in his speech. (apparently he either speaks short sentences or in a low voice kind of manner)
Ah....Shall go enjoy myself a little.
Alright. I'm gonna stop bloggin now~
Who knows? Maybe one day I would find out who that girl was. And also finally get to meet "feng" a.k.a "wind" in person. Hahaha...
(Yea right. I'm insane.)
