NING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I.NEED.YOU.TO.CONTACT.MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! hurry hurry hurry! I saw this ABSOLUTELY...*pauses* uh... FANTASTIC AND GREAT AND PERFECT...*continues rambling on* VIDEO! I wan show u guys! but I dunno how to put the video into the blog...>< then I remembered you put a video in urs last time! tell me plz! it's realli nice! about Tidus and Yuna! The video realli took my breath away leh! it was amazing! *continue rambling*
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okay..I saw this video today...and...it was about Tidus and Yuna. It showed a lot of scenes from FFX and FFX-2. and...it's realli...great. I loved it a lot u know.....It realli showed their love. and...at the last part I couldn't take it anymore..and I kinda cried. >< the song was from F.I.R. It's called "wo men de ai". It's absolutely great. seriously. you guys should...uh..see it. Argh. I can't describe it in words! It's far too good for words.

Well...here's the part I didn't say. When I watched the show, I felt something stirring inside of my heart. Probably the music touched me or sumthing....but the feeling was realli sad. Realli realli sad. It was like my soul was trying to remember sumthing. I felt kinda torn apart at that moment...I couldn't decide how I felt. I wish I could remember. I wish I knew. I wish..there WAS sumthing that happened a long time ago. This isn't me. Or...should I say that..I won't accept me this way. Maybe I read too much comics. Maybe I'm just being sensitive. Maybe I just wanted to be who I am not. Maybe I just wanted to be special and have all my dreams come true. But still......but still....I believe that life has much more than this in store for me. There's MUCH MUCH MORE. I realli believe so. When the time comes...I want to see for myself...what kind of events would I encounter.

When you close your eyes...what do u see? I see Sakura. She's standing there in goddess garments and smiling. Once, she told me that...because my world wasn't perfect...so it's beautiful. I didn't quite understand her then. But now I do. If my world was perfect...it WOULD be nice...but it would bring a lot of pain. Something will go wrong for sure. Sakura likes to smile...I asked her why...and she said that if she didn't smile..the world would suddenly seem dark to herself and others. And..that people will lose the courage to move on..so will she. How many of you know? How many know how painful she felt? How much pain...she has to feel everyday? Things she have lost...things she have found....people who eventually have to leave her.

Yesterday, I dreamt of sumone with Sakura. (yes. I ACTUALLY had such a dream. It realli shocked me.) She couldn't stop crying and the person was trying to comfort her. I can't remember much...but I remember a few sentences like.."Don't cry.", "Don't...go.", "It's like fate is making fun of us you know...." and......"I love you." I don't know why I had such a dream. I don't even know why am I telling u guys. U ppl would find it stupid. I'm sure of that. You always thought of everything as a joke. No wait. I take EVERYTHING back. I've lost control of my feelings now. totally lost control over it.

*bangs head on wall* WHY.AM.I.LIKE.THIS.

I hate myself when I get all emotional and stuff.

Okay...i'm back. Well.....nothing much to say now. imma change blogskin soon. and gonna write new chapter too...