After the whole "i can't forget episode", I'm quite okay now. I dunno why...Maybe if they're happy then i am too...Like they said...even if you aren't with someone you treasure, you'll still want them to find happiness. That's goes the same too wif my friends. I can't forget you all and always will love you no matter wad. I'll always remember the happy things you guys have shown me and how you made my life extraordinary.

Of course, all these refer to that person too. Please find your own happiness and forget about the sad things that happened. Maybe i hurt you without knowning it...but I'm sure that i didn't mean it. Sorry for everything. Sorry for being childish. Haha...but that person won't read this...i know. And i don't ever have the courage to speak to that person again. So...I guess it's goodbye.

"Heck. I alrdy said gdbye last time alrdy." That's what i'm thinking lol. But yea...it's true.
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How many times have we cried over this?

Those hurtful things which you said pierced through me like a knife.

Feelings which can't be heard or felt...

I've tried so hard to make you understand...

I gave you all my love. I didn't let go.

Yet all i received in the end was rejection.

You couldn't understand. You didn't know.

No matter how much i cried for you not to leave...

All i got back was an empty stare. Devoid of all feelings.

I wish you would hold my hand once more...

I wish you would say you like me once more...

I wish...I wish...

So many things left unsaid. Yet i can never talk to you ever again.

How i missed your voice. How i missed your smile.

It's driving me crazy and I can't take much more.

Then suddenly someone comes. He smiles at me and gently starts picking up the pieces.

Slowly...more people came. They smiled and laughed.

"To be brave." one said.

"To be strong." went another.

"Don't cry anymore." He told me. Rubbing away my tears...I looked forward.

There they are. Everybody. Those who treasured and loved me.

Those who are still there for me...They have been waiting.

A tear slide down my cheek.

I ran over...with tears now flowing like a stream. I held onto them.

Slowly, I felt my pain disappear as the tears faded away.

I know i'll be safe. Even if you don't need me.

Because...everybody else is here for me. I'll never forget them.
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Woah. Wad was that? o.o

Anyways...was in some sort of hypnotic trance and i just kept typing. Omg omg omg. How scary. Hahaha....So crappy.

I'm doing my science and chinese now. Work work work~

Listening to 1000 words now. Sooo nice...the song. I wonder...how did Lenne and Shuyin manage to survive 1000 years of separation. It's so painful for them. Maybe that's why he went berserk. Cuz Shuyin loved Lenne too much. He couldn't deal with the fact that she was killed and that he couldn't save her. Not only that...he was killed too. That's why he could not take revenge for Lenne. I should sing this song to someone one day. Muahaha. Fear my voice!

Oh yea...I finally sorta got over the whole "my cousins are freakingly perfect people" kind of thing. Well...I'll just have to be better than them! I MUST DO IT. Yesh yesh yesh.

I'm still waiting for my prince to take me away on that white horse of his. lol....still living in a childhood "princess" thing.

Also...I must be more conscious of my looks and dressing. x.x I've realised that i'm really not into such stuff and it's almost time that i get some training... Personality wise however...I think i'll just need to be more outspoken in real life...cuz during online games i can always make friends easily lol.....so it's not an inner personality problem kind of thing.

Kayz...i better go do my work. ^-^ Must be gd girl lol...

See ya guys then. Love you all~ Forever and ever.