Alright. I have to admit that this blogskin is starting to work for me a little...

Now in school. Typing non-stop away at my blog once again.

I was offered to write a combined story with wrathie. Sounds interesting...? Yea. Kinda. The thing is...I'm supposed to think about a storyline and so far, i have absolutely NO CLUE about what to write. Sure...it's a fantasy and all....but we NEED to have a good plot. Otherwise the story would fall through. I hope i can do this...i don't wanna disappoint both xeph and wrathie.

Recently i've been more optimistic...I have to say. Haha....I've been much more of a "kai xin guo" (you know...happy fruit or sumthing. >.>") I simply love it when people smile for me. It's much more heart warming than when they treat you coldly.

Yinghui is also a nice little "kai xin guo". In fact, she's really sweet.

I've realised that sometimes...my friends don't really treasure my existance. So I try really hard...to remind them that I'm (after all..) human and i would need people to give me some care and concern at least. Of course, I don't walk up to them and say, "Hey. Treasure me hor!" Instead, I do simple little things that show that I know they're my friends and i care for them.

Sometimes, things get too tiring or heavy. Usually, all you need right then is for your friend to realise how hard you've been working to maintain your relationship and probably do something nice for you. Like smile...or say "thanks for everything..." or whatever they use to make you feel happy.

I'm not there for anyone forever. You shouldn't take other people for granted you know... One day, they'll vanish. I know that. I used to rely on my primary school friends so much. No matter how much they hurt me or made me laugh, they'll always be so important to me. When they left, imagine how scared and alone i was. All in a new school. All by myself. Geel and P were in the other classes...

I mean it when i say i care for people. I don't practice any form or hypocritsy. (is that how you spell it?) I don't backstab people for stupid reasons like other people. I choose to trust people. I choose to understand people.

I choose to believe in them.

Some people say i'm gullible. But oh well, if you're not gullible, how can you be the clear mind for someone else when they need it? It's a little silly...but i suppose it's worth it.

Um...I dunno what to write now lol. Anways, ending statement is that....we should always treasure what's around us before it's too late. I've lost many people before. Though i totally regret everything, there's nothing more i can do.

Is it too much to ask to be loved?