Now in the com lab...typing....being bored...

The teacher is taking pictures of the students. xD (for the lesson...that is.)

Had NAFA just now...i FAILED standing board jump.

Uh oh. Sincerely sorry! *does a weird apologetic kind of movement*

Mrs Ee only wrote my distance as 130cm. I have to say that was rather crappy. I actually jumped 150+ to 160+...but she kept saying overstep. (which i probably think i did) Then my muscles became painfully tense. I couldn't jump at all. ;_; The most embarrassing was the last jump...where i clumsily (and painfully) landed on my behind. Owie.

I really could imagine myself going "SPLAT!" or "PIAAAAAAACK!" onto the floor.

sob. I'm lousy. sob.

I'm even lousier than compared to primary school! I suppose something is trying to tell me...

"You're extremely lousy in both academic and sports." PLUS "Get exercising! Go jumping!"

I've also realised that i've been utter too much vulgarities. (well...not a lot actually...but i don't like to say it. Plus...if it becomes a habit...it's too horrible.) Therefore...I've decided to refrain from speaking vulgarities at all. Plus i need to improve on my attitude.

I shall not be short tempered and shall not utter vulgarities.

Okay...probably if i copy it down a few hundred times, i would be able to remember it. Hahahahaha....

Smile. No offensive words. No bad attitude.

*repeats to self over and over again*

I need to relax. I'm too stiff about some stuff. *slaps self*

Ow. Now that hurt.

P.s: I'm evidently going crazy.
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A few mins later......(after i've cooled down.)

Okay. Fine. I admit it. I'm really upset. I just smile cuz i don't want to break down inside the com lab. (a bit comical...but sad as well.)

*a random hand passes me a tissue*

Sob. ;_;

I'M UPSET! (upset upset upset!)

*silent scream*

Why am i so upset? I dunno...it's been so long since i've been THIS upset.

I was supposed to be optimistic! I was supposed to be happy!

Haaaaaaaaapppy. Haaaaaaaaappppy.

No sadness. No grief. No faking-my-smile-cuz-i-don't-want-you-to-see-me-cry.

I don't know which one of my blog readers is reading this post now. Plx don't think i'm crazy. I'm not. I'm just so upset that i keep acting funny. (plus smile and laugh)

*cries*

I wanna go home and hide in a corner......I don't think i can handle the politics at choir today......

I'm not gonna stand up for myself when someone bullies me.....I'm not even gonna say anything when the soccer ball hits me in class....I'm just gonna sit down and keep quiet.

I'm tired.

My legs hurt.

I'm sad.

And i'm all alone in the com lab.



P.s: I'm sick of the people in this world. I'm pretty much sure that some of them are sick of me as well.

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Edited: OMGAWD. I FOUND A BLOG WHICH USED THE SONG "PRETTY BOY" (which was the same as mine last time.) So angry. I've decided to dislike that person for today. Okies bye.