Wow...seems like so long since i posted. (actually not realli. I'm just being melodramatic.)

To love or not to love? That's the question. My cousin is absolutely crazy about guys. (younger girl cousin) Well...sorta. She kinda has a lot of suitors lol...a bit like Hwee Tian. How sweet. =D As for me...well...I'm rather quiet...so i don't really have anybody who is interested in me.

Doesn't matter though...cuz i don't wanna face all those things.

Sometimes...I feel that when someone likes you but you don't like them, it would be rather hard to reject the poor fellow. Imagine if you have TONS of suitors and you get together with each one of them for one or two weeks before dumping them...isn't that cruel? >.<

Why bother to go into a love which has no ending? I'm not really sure. Maybe cuz we just feel lonely? Guys are also human....they would feel the pain when we ditch them or tell them that we don't like them. It's not really true that all guys are flirts and stuff like that. So sometimes, i find myself wondering, "Poor guy. He must have got dumped." or sumthing like that.

In fact, when i see guys who wallow in self pity because of love relationships, i get very upset.

Why? Why do you still love that girl who dumped you like you were trash? Sure...you had happy times...but all these can happen again if you move on and give yourself another shot at love. But no...they choose to wallow in self pity or something. Maybe they were hoping that the girl would go back to them out of sympathy. (yes. silly girls like me would actually fall for that old trick.)

Love is not love if it is based on sympathy.

It wouldn't work as well if you're telling yourself very hard that you would develop feelings for the other party when you don't even like them in the first place. If it's like that...it would be a lie. There would never be love between the two in the first place.

I've learnt a lot since i graduated from primary school. I got to experience a lot of things emotionally. Frankly...some of which are not very good experiences...but still...i can look back and say, "Hey. So this is how it would feel if that happened."

I've cried. I've screamed. I've smiled. All these emotions aren't exactly strangers to me anymore.

Haix. That's why i'm tired of doing so many things. I'm not like some other girls who would just like attention from guys...I simply just want someone who is really true to me.

Prince Charming? (you know...the one with the white horse and stuff. xD) Hahahaha....

I don't need so many guys who i know would hurt my feelings. (like i've seen with the other girls.) I only need one whom i would love and would love me back as well.

Just one. The special one.
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Oh. And stay optimistic ppl! Recently i've been helping lots of ppl get out of their own personal darkness and i feel that it's extremely upsetting to see my friends in such a sad state.

So SMILE for me! Like the light shine in your heart!

It'll all be okay in the end. I know. =3

So don't disappear. Don't surrender to the darkness.