Back from the exams....but still having limited playing time.

Anyways. Have you guys seen Final Fantasy 12? It rocks like hell. Damn. Just watching the trailer is enough to set me on a final fantasy craze.

Kay. So i admit. The guy whom Ashe married was rather...good looking and all....BUT WHY NOT VAAN? and who in the name of heaven is that girl who hugged Vaan liddat? =
Not sure what's going on. Anyways...I should make more comments after playing it.

Gonna go play my PS2. Rawr.

Also, I've decided to be more independent. Shall never ever go disturb frank ever again. He can go on with his life or wadever. But i shall not ever disturb anybody anymore.

I went downstairs for basketball shooting at 8.45pm last night. I thought about a lot of things.

I realised that i was afraid and all alone. That's why i relied so much on others. What made it worse....is that some of my friends from pri school probably thought that my new change is "bitchy" or "attention seeking". (The reason i said this is cuz i saw something i wrote somewhere...a long time ago. I wrote about how someone had hurt me.)

I wanted so much to be stronger. Yet the strength i found wasn't the one i was searching for.

When i reached out for others, they disappeared. Just like that. They faded away...leaving only memories of someone who had once been there with me.

And you know...I've found out that i can't really like someone in that kind of boy-girl way anymore. There's just no reason to. Which is why i always felt pity for people who complain about their love life problems. I'm more or less focusing on my studies now....

Maybe one day i'll find someone whom i can love with all my heart. Someone who i can sacrifice everything for.

But for now...I'm just chasing something that isn't true.

I never wanted to give up....on that fantasy of mine.

I didn't like the feeling of being stuck to reality.

I'm sick of running away. I'm sick of crying. I'm sick of calling for help.

I don't care what others think. Not anymore. Not now.

I just wanted to reach out for something which i hoped for.
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Lyrics for the song: "Kiss Me Goodbye" from final fantasy 12

Japanese (Original)

Anata wa mayotte, ite mo
Doa wa aiteru yo
Futari no sekai dake de wa
Mitasarenain deshou?

Hane wo ageru kara
Shinjite tobe-pa ii

Kiss me good-bye, love is memory
Anatawo ushinattemo
Aishita kiokuga tuyosani kawarukara

Tashikana monowo sagashite
Daremoga koisuruga
Yuruganai aiwa jibunno nakaniaru

Kiss me good-bye, sayonara
Atarashii watashi ni kawaru

Kiss me good-bye
Kiss me good-bye

Kiss me good-bye, love is memory
Atarashii futari ni kawaru nara

Kiss me good-bye, nakanai
Anata wo aiseta kara
Anata wo aiseta kara

English (Translation from Japanese Lyrics)

Though you lost your way
The door is already open
You can't be satisfied
For the world only with me

I give you wings,
You should believe and fly

Kiss me good-bye, love's memory
Even if I lose you
My memory of love changes into my strength

Everyone falls in love
For searching a reliable thing
But a reliable love exists in ourselves

Kiss me good-bye, farewell
I will make myself new

Kiss me good-bye
Kiss me good-bye

Kiss me good-bye, love's memory
If we make ourselves new

Kiss me good-bye, I don't cry
Because I could love you
Because I could love you

English (Original)

You may say my love is all you need to see you through
But I know these words are not quite true
Here is the path you're looking for, an open door
Leading to worlds you long to explore

Go, if you must move on alone
I'm gonna make it on my own

Kiss me good-bye, love's memory
Follow your heart and find your destiny
Won't shed a tear for love's mortality
For you put the dream in my reality

As time goes by I know you'll see this of me
I loved you enough to let you go free

Go, I will give you wings to fly
Cast all your fears into the sky

Kiss me good-bye, love's mystery
All of my life I'll hold you close to me
Won't shed a tear for love's mortality
For you put the dream in my reality

Kiss me good-bye, love's memory
You put the dream in my reality
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The little girl sits by the window once again.
She gazes into the ever-open sky.
Silently, she sheds a tear.

"If only I could see your world...would we be waiting for each other now?"

She lowers her head in despair.
For she had almost lost all hope.
If this were to continue...

The dream might just end.