Sorry that I haven't been blogging much lately..I was kinda busy and slacking.

Well....have you read the title yet??? (look up plz.)

I keep getting betrayed. I dunno why. People whom I trust suddenly backstabs me. I can't believe it... You wanna know the latest incident??

Well...it started out with me going to school today. Then halfway through it, some of my friends told me that someone said I was "fake". (as in hypocrite) I went.."O.....kay." Cuz I realli didn't know how to react. Apparently...one of my blog readers...(if I had told you my blog url PERSONALLY, it means I trust you. If I don't....I trust u'll be gd anyways.) someone in my class who had read my blog, saw the part where I said Esther was a bad person. Then...she went to Esther and probably said something like, "She has a blog WHICH SHE MAINLY USES TO SCOLD PPL IN CLASS." Like....what?! cuz that's so not true! You guys read my blog...and even if i occasionally state a comment about someone, it's a fact and it is TACTFUL. Anyways...she told Esther about what i wrote about her in my blog. (which was only one to two sentences long) Then...both of them said i'm a hypocrite. They said I was "fake".

At first my inner self wanted to kill that person immediately. Yes, I don't deny I was EXTREMELY mad. Worst still, i'm not in a gd mood lately as I get easily irritated. Yet, after some time, I decided to let the matter off. I don't wanna point fingers. I don't wanna crap or gossip about how evil that person was or something. She's my.....friend. I can't go and just slap her...can i? Anyways...now I sincerely want to be friends with Esther. Why? Because I realli pity her. I kinda believe now that no matter how hardcore a person is, they all need some care and love. True, many ppl seroiusly hate Esther cuz she betrayed them and did a lot of backstabbing. But how many ppl saw that she was lonely? Many ppl can say she deserve it, but I don't think so. I always thought...imagine those strong willed ppl in school you see everyday...they get bullied yet they still stand up not matter what and they always show a strong character, but when they reach home, they feel sad and lonely. Perhaps some even cry.

No matter how perfect someone may seem...no matter how strong someone may seem...we all have mistakes and imperfections.

I don't deny that I hated Esther once. It was because she said terrible stuff about me just cuz she doesn't like me. Plus, I was those kind of ppl who have a motto that says "If you treat me nice, i'll treat you nicer. If you step on my tail and do bad things to me, I'll make sure u get hell." (THAT was my motto when i got into secondary school. It was the only way I keep myself sane and protect myself too.) But now....I don't hate her anymore. She's just another classmate...and hopefully..maybe a trustworthy friend. I dunno...but everyone gotta start off somewhere right?

As for that betraying friend of mine.....well...I know who you are. Also, I just wanna say something that i realised to you. If you're reading this, just take it as my opinion and if u wanna do something about it or not, it's your choice. You've changed you know? Since the start of the secondary one year, you have changed so much. You used to be so sweet and bubbly. Now? You've become a mere shadow of someone popular. Does being popular mean so much to you? You were alright the way you were. Nobody needs to be someone they're not just to gain the approval of some popular gang...and I mean NOBODY. We're all unique. I loved my friends for the way they were...and you too. I don't need them to be popular. I don't need them to be a genius either. I don't need them to be anything they don't like.

I only need my dear friends the way they are.

Therefore...I would wish that you come back to your senses. All your friends are here. All you need to do is to embrace them and be their friend. Then, we'll all see you through any storm. (and I mean it once again. haha..) The same thing applies to all my friends: No matter where we go, we are always there for each other.

Anyways.........That's all I wanna say. Keke...the rest is up to u guys.

Oh yea....here a gd news! My friend's back! She's okay! She's nice! And I appreciate her. hehe.... (you know...the friend whom I said I was worried for...ning should know.) I'm so damn happy for her......soooooooo happy~

Hm....are these all the words coming from the bottom of my heart? Yea...I'm hundred percent sure! That means...I only act tough. But i still have a soft heart inside. That's great! lol....I needed a confirmation. Seems like I did it.

Oh ya...wanted to inform all blog readers that I'm flying off to shanghai on friday. Which is tomorrow...i'll miss you all cuz i won't be back until next sat. (the 2nd day before school reopens.) Will be blogging and be on msn if I can though.

Okies...that's all for now...I shall go take dinner. See ya!