Great. Now i'm arguing with Frank over some weird junior he has.

He said i was rude. o.o

RUDE?! (Whatever.)

And somehow, I manage to feel like crap after he said so. We've been like...speaking to each other for god-knows-how long.

Then some pretty junior comes along and...we fall apart like dominos or something. (And I thought we were gd friends.)

He said I chose Sasuke over him as well. Then I said that Sasuke was not real and it doesn't count. He said, "That's worse."

I replied with the most heart-wrenching sentences (to me...not him.)

"I just needed someone to love."
"Plus, Sasuke isn't real."
"So it'll nvr happen between us. (as in sasuke and I)"

And then I realised. It was true. No matter how much I would idolize or like Sasuke, it wouldn't be true. I just needed someone to love.

Yet I denied Sasuke's existence. (and god...that's crappy.)

I hate this. I'm so damn angry at him. I don't care if i need someone to talk to. I'm just gonna sit in the corner and cry now. I'm not gonna bother about him.

So what if I'm mean...? So what if i'm rude...?

.......

He really didn't need to do that.

And now, I'm really upset. I'm just gonna cry at my com.

Now I have no one to love. (Sasuke. I WAN MY SASUKE.)

I have no one to comfort me. (He was mean to me.)

And I feel like crap. Maybe even worse.

I know I sound like some retarded little spoilt brat. But i just need some time-out. I need the time to slow down a little.

..........

It hurts.

So now...I'm just gonna say this: Okay. So I'm mean. I'm hard to get along with. I'm EVERYTHING ppl hate to see in others. I'm a spoilt brat who just likes to whine and cry.

I'm weak.

Does that make him happy? I hope it did. Cuz he violently woke me up from my dream with Sasuke and it feels terrible.

Also, it finally shows that he thought of me as a silly girl from the start. A stupid whiny little girl who would do nothing but disturb him. A good-for-nothing girl who, even when she says, "You've made a big impact in my life.", would never even have a friendship with him that's strong enough to stop him from gawking at some girl who walks past and listen to me say something important.

Guess what? The final thing I wanted to say to him was, "That perverted fatty is constantly looking at me. Like he's gonna eat me up."

But whatever. He won't care.

"Shang is so violent, she can defend herself."

Right.

RIGHT! *SCREAMS*

In fact, I'm so upset now, I don't even care about that sickening fatty.

Just leave me to die. My life is already so useless anyway.

I'm going to audi. My cousin is the only thing i have at this moment.

Even though i know he'll eventually let me fall as well.